nostalgical entries...

was browsing my past entries.. feeling the emotions, the mindsets, the state of mind.. and guess wat i realised about myself over the past 2 yrs? i've retarded in terms of intrinsic maturity.. hahaahaha.. that's weird rite?.. wrong.. its worst then losing ur stamina, its worst then losing weight.. its worst then losing ur best hands in poker... its like losing yourself... i've lost myself.. i dunno who i become... the image in the mirror resembles me... but not the soul... i've sold my mind and spirit to.. i dunno who.. haha.. not the devil but... sigh.. 2 yrs.. and i've not grown my spiritual being... nor my mental consiousness.. wow.. haha... wat a great achievement.. haahhaha... good nite.. tired...