so many words so little time..

just watched wat happens in vegas again. argh.. didn't really feel like watching it again. but well provided an outlet for me to think. "if i nver had to put down a bet, i'd nver had to lose" so true.. i noe exactly wat these words mean.. poker has brought me down that road many times. love too. so i noe how it feels to want to give up just like that. i've been through so much loses in my life, but i just keep going.. am i too stubborn? or too strong?.. am i too naive? or matured to see failures as steps to success? or am i just too weak to move on, or so strong that i can't give up?..
in poker, being outdrawn by the last card on a 2 percent chance is possible. heck, i even lose to a 0.197% chance of winning hand. Nothing in this life is impossible, as long as the % is not 0, there is always that chance of winning. But every poker player noes, playing these low % hands only get u in shit over the long run. But does it apply to life? or Love? Should i fold my hand now? knowing that my chances are so slim? or should i pay the expensive price of calling it down to the last card?.. "even though i went all in with the best hand, i almost always get sucked out.. i'm starting to get sick of the feeling, and i'm starting to be afraid of it.. so afraid that i do not dare place bets, because i am afraid of losing.. i'm losing my one characteristic that i deem unique to others, the willing to take a gamble in all aspect.... will i end up bankrupt again? or will the rainbow lead me to the pot of gold at the end? or just to the start of the infinite curve of the rainbow?..."